hmm honestli i dnt knw wats wrong wif u, u get me wrong all the time, when i dnt shout at u u say i do, when i am seriousli mad at u u take it lightli, all u care about is urself, ur pain and sufferin seems to be more like a ploy and plea for ppl to shower attention to u, if tats wat u want tell me i can help be more of a fucka and u can get more love.... honestli sometimes i wonder whether u even care? its always about u and i have had strangers more concerned about some things than u...
honestli i feel like a mindless zombie just released from a spell...its like i spent all these few months just stonin and not thinkin or knowin the direction my life is takin.. complacency crept up slowli on me and blinded me into just followin a directionless path and it feels fucked up to know the last 2-3 months i have learnt nuffin much and even cant even account anithin useful i did...i blamed everythin on camp camp camp, people are stil leadin meaningful lives even though they're in camp and i shld be ashamed of myself for findin an excuse to be complacent, fitness wise emotion wise , and even mental wise i have deteoriated and learnt nuthin useful.....
emotionalli i have been too nice to peepz and i guess i have let my attitude and arrogance sleep..and the awakenin was a sharp one...its a nasty slap to get but i m glad i realised it now rather than later....so i guess i m back...mess wif me and i'll show u who i am, i am wateva u say i am, and worse...i spent so much time changin myself to whims of others in efforts for them to be happi... i just realised ther can be no way evry1 want the same kinda person from me and honestli now i dont give a fuck wat people want or think i just wanna bother about people impt to me and most imptli myself....if u dnt like my character or me fuck off i am better off wifout u...hmm embrace me for whu i am or scram....
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